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MichellesTeng (:
Don't hate me for the wrong reasons, don't judge me as though you know everything about me.
I can be fake to people i hate. No sweet talks and stuff like that, i dont fall for that.
Love me or hate me, it is still an obsession. If you love me, then thank you. If you hate me, then f**k you
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure.
I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle,
but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
- Marilyn Monroe

3rd January 2010
Charlotte Ng Xuan Wen
Darling, you're the sweetest thing that ever happen to me. Your first cry, your first smile and the very first time i held you in my arms..
That kind of feeling is indescribable. Yes, i know it will never be perfect for you again but baby, mummy promised to give you my
very best.
I love you charbaby(:
Monday, February 04, 2013
Today is the day i wanna get things off my chest and that explains why i'm posting stuffs at fb.
Contradicting, yes. Because logically i don't owe any one any explanation.
I know how it feels to be kept in the dark, or being a fool and i may be still a fool right now.
People can be really disappointing, and i'm trying hard not to have any expectations.
I just wanna live my life, with no lies to myself.
And briefly, here's my story.
I did not come in between the two of you. I tried my best to cut myself off from him.
He is the one who came back looking for me and from what he say is that to him i've never left.
Showing people 2 women fighting over 1 guy is stupid. No one fought with you, at least not me.
When he came back he did admit the fact that he did lied to you and me which i already knew.
Yes, i called you a bitch. Is that a big deal? The one i love is with you, does that matter? You've read all our conversations, did i put the blame on you? From what was said to me was you knew he still loves me, and i do love him too, you're a willing party, so don't pretend that you didn't hurt me when you're showing the world he's with you. Still, did i blame you? No, i blame guy who told me how much he love me and just after 5 days i see shit. I was angry i was upset but not with you.
I'm jealous, yes. Because i love him, and it breaks my heart to know shit i'm trying not to know.
You said you willingly let go. But it doesn't seem to be that case. Me being desperate? Sorry, i never needed a man. If i'm really desperate i wouldn't have gave him up countless times just because i have a daughter and i didn't want to drag him down with me. This is how i love him, no matter how hard it's gonna be as long as he's happy i will let him go. I don't use threats to make him stay. Until now he doesn't have a clue what happen to me when he's happily with you. And looks like he doesn't care too. You said i was the one who didn't cherish him? If you're doing a better than me, he wouldn't even want to come back. I was angry, and hated you for draging my daughter down. What the fuck she did to you? Me acting? Trying to gain sympathy? Did my post happen to touch your heart or conscience for a bit? Anyway, this is it. From today onwards i won't remember you and hope you too don't remember me cause i don't mind and you don't matter.